A day for myself

I am unusually in a good mood!
One of those weird days to mark red on the calender! I guess it is a backlash of the gloom I was in yesterday. Had a bad night, couldn't really sleep, was very agitated, woke up in the worst mood ever and denied myself food until like 11 PM. For like no reason. I wasn't fasting or anything, I just was in a dead mood, didn't wanna do anything with myself. Ask me how much I hated that from one to a million?
A million!
Today I woke up with an unusual happy feeling. I am having my second breakfast, ok it is 3 Pm, but whatever, times doesn't matter to me unless I have to work, which luckily today I don't.
Chatted briefly with a friend, which made me really happy and now I am sitting typing this with some bleach in my hair, I wonder what kind of outcome this experiment will have! I don't really care.
I then will take a good shower and go out to breathe some fresh air and then head to the gym.
It's amazing how my body quickly reacts to movement. I only trained a few times this month, after the long summer break and yeah I must say I saw already some great results!
I rediscovered the pleasure of swimming again, in fact I may go for a nice swim after the gym, since the pool is in the same building...then a nice jacuzzi and sauna, why not! Total spa treatment for me today!
It can do me so good. That's what I need.
I have no idea what I will do this weekend, not sure if there is anything cool happenning in Umeå.
What I know is that in november we are heading to Stockholm for a weekend and be at the final gig of the tour of Pain! I cannot wait for that! I miss hanging out in the city. I know that Amr will fall in love istantely with that city, because it is so lively and beautiful and I will probably have to drag him back to Umeå with a vengeance! LOL. I wouldn't mind living in Stockholm, but we cannot really afford the city life there I have never been a city girl, more of a town girl, I like to live in communities where you know like more or less everyone in the scene and you know where to go and where to get your things done.
But oh well. Let's see where life takes us. I was looking at some pictures of Ghent in Belgium yesterday and man I was blown away by its beauty! It is marvellous! Such great buildings and great atmosphere! I miss visiting Belgium, although I feel there is a very negative aurea in that area that can drive people mad. Some serious evil shit going on. But beautiful, oh so beautiful!
Time to wash off the bleach...maybe gonna write more later. Hej då!

So that is how it turned out..streaks

Well the result was not the best one could wish for, but not extremely bad either. You cannot really see from this picture but the hair now got some reddish blondish streaks here and there but the problem is that it is not even...kinda random actually. I feel like buying a light brown hair dye and do a Frankenstein, ya know, fixing here and there. Since I felt extremely trashy after this failed attempt to lighten my hair I decided to go ghetto all the way and take this cool pic! LOL!

Too much freetime! Nah, it's never too much!

Various thoughts before bed

Some days ago I saw a video on youtube where someone was trying to scare people off by saying that this huge meteorite which supposely today was going to pass between the Earth and the Sun, was going to provoke terrible earthquakes all over the globe and that enormous tsunamis would come and make Japan, Australia, Indonesia and Russia disappear under the sea. I don't believe in these things but I must admit this video seriously disturbed me, to the point I almost wanna go find this person and give him a good slap in the face!
They have been trying to terrify us for decades now...aliens stories, global warming, mayan predictions...how many times did they announce the end of the world? Countless times! I wish these fake predictors would shut the hell up. Only God knows when the end of the world will come, no human can read the future or can tell when this day will come! These people really irritate me! Thanks God we are still here and still alive!
Time is a gift and a test, it is limited and we should not waste it, we should just make the best out of the time we have!  I didn't sleep much last night and had a long day and I feel really exausted.
This morning I let some negative feelings enter my heart and got really irritated with a friend for ignoring me.
I was getting so angry because I have so much affection and good feelings inside me that I would like to pour them all out of me and shower the people I love with lots of good things and good vibes and I really find it frustrating when I cannot get to show all the love I have...friendship is a gift that is rare to find...if my friends knew how much I love them they would be amazed! I guess I am too sensitive. People sometimes have other reasons that make them act a certain way and not always they want to share them with others. It would be so selfish of me to expect them to notify me and confide in  me or seek my help if what they need is to be alone.

 Anyway, what I want to say is this...if you are reading this and still feel bad remember that you shouldn't let anyone affect your mood and ruin your day. We cannot know what goes on in other people's heart or mind, or about everything that they have to go through. If someone hurts you and makes you feel bad just remember that I am here for you and I will always be. No matter if we keep in touch or not. I am there whenever you need, because that is what friends are for. And remember this, for each person that hurts you there are maybe dozens out there or more who love you. So don't let anyone make you feel miserable, because indeed around you there are people who love you to death the way you are and they wouldn't change you for anyone else. Me being one of them. I love all my friends. So if you feel down, think of me, maybe it will make you feel better.
Goodnight...and good vibes and hopes for what tomorrow will bring.

Sunday's late breakfast and various thoughts

Man it is like 5 Pm and I am having coffee..it feels like I just woke up, or better I still didn't wake up properly although I have been up for a few hours. I don't understand why I feel so tired?
I am gonna fight this with a good work out at the gym, as soon as I finish this coffee.

Last night we went to Verket, the local punk venue and we saw two bands live, My Last Escape and Scumkill. It was cool, although of course after Pain, it is hard to find a band that can keep up with that level. Depending on musical tastes of course. I must say that at the moment Pain and Triptykon are my favorite bands, along with my old time favourite Satyricon.

Last night on the way out...cold so I had to put on my leather jacket!

Anyway, last night turns out that the guys in My Last Escape were shooting a video! And guess what, behind the camera there was Tonie, our friend and director of the film  we shot this summer "Alone".

I was there banging my head like crazy in the front row, so I guess you will be seeing me in the video!

I will definitely post it up once it is finished.

Tonie and I at Verket

Scumkill was really heavy. I really liked the bassist, who is actually a female, she had the attitude, the skills and the looks...nice! It made me feel like grabbing a bass and start grooving. Many of you may not know that when I was younger I was actually learning to play bass a little, had an acoustic bass which I borrowed from someone and stayed at my place for like 10 years or so. When I was in Egypt I was also training a bit with Amr. Bass is cool, but not as cool as guitar...wish I could play guitar so much. My dad is actually a decent guitarist, he was even in a band when he was young. The band was called Cherokee. But they never released anything .
I have been singing quite a bit these days as well, preparing my voice for a new Dreamlike Horror recording.
I have been so lazy with music, I hate when that happens. I guess it is just life sucking me in a sea of other things to take care of...but when you are a musician and you want that real bad, music has got to be the number one thing in your life and the only priority. I feel a bit embarassed that I put that huge part of me aside all these years. Amr is always on my ass because of that. The man's got a point.
I am quite happy because just a few days ago I found two old friends again on Fb, we haven't talk for like 10 years and we are so happy to be in touch again. I cannot wait to have a nice conversation with them to catch up with all these things that we have been doing all this time. This is the proof that when you really click with someone it doesn't matter how many years you stay without each other, life will bring them back into your life and affection is always there, no matter how many years of silence there were in between. I know you two will read this, probably, you know who you are...big hugs...and talk soon yeah!

A night with Pain and Raubtier in Umeå!

Man, september what a month!
All kinds of stuff happenned. Bought two cars, sold one, rented out one of our rooms, went to the police to report someone who tried to screw me over...and the month is still not over!
I will skip all the bullshit and come straight to the highlight of this month: last monday night! What a pearl!
Went straight from work to the Pain/Raubtier concert at folketshus, changed in a hurry in the office's bathroom, ran to the venue under the rain without an umbrella...and when I went in I looked like I had just taken a shower with my clothes on!! Even my make up was half gone and had no time to fix it, but I still looked alright despite all that!
Unfortunately I missed Raubtier but I came early enough to be able to catch a cool first row spot right in front of Peter, at the centre of the stage!

From left: Simon of Zonaria, Amr and I during the concert

the amazing Peter Tägtgren

Lots of people I knew were there, the atmosphere was just pure magic, the concert was awesome!! I couldn't get enough, I wish they had played one more hour! Anyway after the show we got lucky enough to enter the backstage, together with our friends in Zonaria...and it was awesome! We met Peter and the other guys and witnessed some crazy shit in the backstage LOL!! We had a blast! Peter actually signed Amr's BC Rich Wartribe, I guess that made the guitar become kind of sacred now!




David and Johan of Pain and Emil of Zonaria



Peter and I

funtimes in the backstage

Pär, Peter and Amr

We also met Pär, the singer of Raubtier, who was really nice and when he heard I was italian he played me and sang me an italian song on a piano which was in the backstage! I really had a awesome time!!

Pär playing a song

We were lucky enough to come home with three PAIN guitar picks...Amr and I must be really skilled at pick catching, we developped this skill and now after every gig we manage to go home with at least one pick! We have quite a remarkable collection I must say, I am considering buying a safe for that! No kidding!
Here is a photo:

Hopefully when the guys come back to Stockholm in november, after the whole european soon, we are gonna go and see them again. I really hope so!